Through out last semester till now since march, I've been working as student helper in KDU University College to earn my life spent and some pocket money. I know other student helper when i working and all of them are very fun and all very friendly. In this pass 3 month, i really did learn many things from them. we hang out , work together, eat together, play together it makes my life meaningful and colorful. :D Beside know new friend from KDU, i also know friend from CHC. I join a cell group and most of them are talent people and their life is shining! They have singer, actor, model, magician, and also music composer. I'm those people that not dare to talk to people, not dare to look at that people when talking and self-confident level is very low. In this 3 month, i force myself a lot and i force myself to train to speak with someone, go talk with someone by myself and try not to be quite and keep myself alone. I join CHC cell group and they all did help me a lot they train me and they even force me to speak to them and they even all quite just to make me speak.......It is very tough but it really helps me.
In here i want to specially thanks someone that really effects me and turn my life's view. Thanks pearly. I really did learn many things from u and every point that u say it is really works and i dunno why i will feel things that are right and i will go and follow do.....haha.....Finance block me to do all this thing's....haihzzzz Friend from CHC and from KDU all seem so rich. They just go every where that they want and they even have their own saving. Since small i dun even have money to keep and I just feel like it is so weary to get pocket money from my parent because they always say no money for me no money to continue apply for me no money to pay my tuition fee anymore no money to buy things anymore and every time will say in-front of me tells that have to loan have to use epf for my studies.......Should i consider to go work and stop study? Am i really in family that cant afford my studies? Should i stop study after this semester and go work for my rest of my life?
In the other hand i must thanks god to put me in this family. From small i have to do everything myself. I'm so jealous that other people have a good brother or a good sister. I have a brother but since small i been bully by him and his friend. From small i know how to take care myself learn do things myself and not depending on my brother. In this case i really learn a lot because i get to know that i only can success by improving myself to become knowledgeable. And now i came to college life my family keep say that no money and i force to work to get myself money for my life. When i work i also get chance to know more friend and learn more from them and i also know hows a marketing department works and how it function. I learn and get many experience when i work.
There are too many things that i wanted to do and my target since last year but every thing also cost. Now only can hope to get enough money to pass my this semester and do not think so much to get anything anymore because just used up my money to get a new phone(half sponsor by parent)but there will be no pocket money for this semester........I hope that i can pass this semester and if they still say no money for me to study then i will consider to go and work and stop studying :)
Today is not writing dairy and i'm writing my feeling throughout this 3 month that really changes me a lot and i want to become new people that can makes every one happy and be good with everyone. Cheer Vincent, Keep Going Vincent, You can do it :) JUST FORGET ABOUT THESE DAMMMMMMM FEELING AND FIGHTING FOR THIS semester Aim all A for the subject :D
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