Yesterday my old roommate came back to KL after intern. He follow me go find pearly. We go shop, buy thing, movie and had our dinner. I would like to go out every day but i know this is not going to happen. Is already 29 September and it will be the last day last month for me to go out. I must set myself not to go out and to be train myself to build myself and self improvement. Today is my first day i step into degree. I went my 1st class of degree and i feel very exited because i successfully step further in my life path. After my class i continue go work as student helper as usual. At night my parent call me and to tell me they totally cant afford me to study and want me to borrow PTPTN. I know that even i borrow PTPTN also cannot cover my study and parent still need to pay for my rental and lifespent. They only know how to say must go work must earn myself and bla bla bla. Do they think it is so easy to study and work? They just say go work and when results get not that good and ask why so bad and so so so ...... Why i would need to afford these kind of stress?? Why is me?? Should i follow my brother to go out work without finish study? No need think about short of money? AM I STILL A KID?? When they say not enough money and i been scold that say i no need to use a phone that cost 1K .....Am i still a kid?? using a 1K phone is too expensive phone?? If i know i will face this kind of stress i WONT BUY! After buy then say so many thing make me stress......WHY!? Every time tell me no money and no money and no money , but every time i go home i see new thing and go home again new thing again and go home new thing again but i;m outside studying and working to pay for myself ! When cant afford myself ask money from u all then sure ask why no money why so waste ! Do U THINK KL SPENDING IS SO LESS? OK! I just spent my rest of the day i just eat the cheapest thing and not eat! You All Put Negative Thing To ME ! .......
Girls that like?CHASE? no way~ no money
AA pay? No way~ place to go is too high class
Study? No Way ~ Not affordable
Go Eat? No Way~ Is too expensive outside
Study, Work, Cook myself, Church, Cell group that's all i can do ....... OK ! I'll just past my these 2 year by doing this! Last month Last day going out...... Goodbye World
Sorry for the negative thinking. It's 12am~~~~~~~ GOOD NIGHT MY DIARY.
~MOODY~
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